Some thoughts

 God help me, ever since my health crises back in 2017 I am bothered by certain things. Like for example, even though I am working on it swearing bothers me. I know it is a sin to swear and I don't like to do it. I just have become picky about it. Maybe others might see me as being a goody two shoes but it doesn't matter to me what others think. I mean the only opinion I should seek to have is from my heavenly father. Now this does not mean I should be cold, or cruel either. I think we need to reflect our heavenly fathers love not only to us but to other people. But peoples opinion really should not matter. In view of all this, what can we say? If God is for us, who can be against us? Romans 8:31  

 

When I see swearing now online it really bothers me. when I had my health crises back in 2017 I grabbed a book that I bought I started to read it was trying to distract myself and make myself tired as I was experiencing insomnia. I had to stop reading the book when I saw swearing in it. It just brought me to a place where now I want to read  only christian non fiction books. I have some authors that I will look into getting but for now my books are more focused on spiritual growth or understanding better how God made me. I think in part the reason I am so bothered is by my own sins in this department. I am not a major swearer but I have swore with that said  maybe the reason it bothers me so much now is my own regrets of getting down a path of doing it.

Thats another thing that brings me to mind. Not only am I bothered by swearing my movie taste has changed drastically since then too. I still watch the odd action packed film but even my movie taste is different. Well not 100% different I always liked the movies I tend to focus on now but now those are what dominantly I watch. I find films that are too violent I can not watch any more it just gives me anxiety. Some films I can still watch if it has a story line but if all it is killing people, etc I can not stand to watch. So like war movies I can't handle. Again unless there is a story line. I dunno I just feel so much with all that has happened in my life that God is just refining me.

That brings me to another topic I feel like the odd ball. I have not found people who are like me on this front. I mean vast majority of people watch horror movies, and most like them. I have seen some 6 or 7 horror movies or that would be considered to be and I did not appeal to them. I saw one movie that I found it to be the scariest and it was an older film. I just find too often that I don't mesh with this world. I mean there are things that pull me down but there are so much that I just can't relate too. Even with the christian community people participate in those things. I mean I did at some point also participate in earthly things. Just as I grow I become less and less wanting to get involved with certain things. I am though in no position to judge because I too have fallen. I guess God is just working in me and showing me to be less involved with certain things. Am I perfect, NO WAY. But I am working on following what God is telling me.

Which brings me to another thought, if God tells you to do something do it, you never know the reason behind it. If he moves you to stop something, do it, don't lean on your own understanding but his. I know that is tough to do though, believe me  I have faced hardships in my life but you will be better for it. I admit I used to be really into a soap opera I used to watch. Since I was young I was hooked into Days of Our Lives. It wasn't till I got the message back in 2017 I needed to stop watching it.  Its not of God's values, and it really does reflect the enemy. The show is nothing but a distraction and its putting into me things that really is not what God wants for me. By the help of his Holy Spirit I was able to conquer giving up and have not watched it since. I don't miss it. You start new habits and start with  replacing it with other things. Now on my queue to do in my day is to listen to a christian podcast or watch a video on youtube. Something that may benefit me and my relationship with him.

I also starting this blog. I have no idea who it may bless. I just felt the pull to do it. I know if its God's will he will use this for his glory and  I hope it will.

Disclaimer, I will use scripture from time to time but this is purely my thoughts. I am not a theologian student or anything like that. I am however, learning about God's will and what he wants for us (also how he want us to live our lives). I do not claim to have the truth or to speak it.  I do pray and hope God will use me if it is his will but I just wanted to put this disclaimer because I don't want people to think that what all I say is the truth. If you want the truth read the Bible and ask for the Holy spirit to work in your life. Whats true for me may not be what is for you, etc. Although Jesus is the way.  Also this is just my journey.