Identity 2.0 homework

 

I am sharing here because I think out of Identity 2.0 course I am taking right now this is my fave exersize. 

We are to find 3 top lies, flip the script, and find supporting truths of the opposite from the Bible.

I share here because this is part of me being or showing for accountability in my growth journey. (even though some weeks anxiety/depression win) 

My current lies I am invisible, I am not important, I am not valuable, God loves others but not me. 

Lie 1- I am invisible- God's truth Genesis 16:13 NIV You are the God who sees me,' for she said, 'I have now seen the One who sees me.'" 

Lie 2- I am not important - God's truth Psalm 139:13-14 (NIV) "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." 

God didn’t make a mistake when He made you. He was intentional, personal, and careful. You are fearfully and wonderfully made — that means you matter 

Lie 3- I am not valuable- God's truth Luke 15:4-7 (The Parable of the Lost Sheep)"Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Doesn’t he leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it?" 

God values every individual—so much that He leaves the 99 to seek just one. You are that one when you feel lost or forgotten.

 Lie 4- God loves others but not me- God's truth- Galatians 2:20 (NIV)"The Son of God… loved me and gave himself for me." 

Paul makes it personal: "He loved me." You can insert your name here. Jesus didn’t die for an idea—He died for individual people, including you. 

Affirmations 

 • I am not invisible, God sees me and knows me 

• I am important to my creator he knit me together in my mother's womb 

• I am valuable to God and when I was lost he came after me. 

• God loves me, he died for me and my sins

Love is but for some.

 

You know this is something that I wanted since I was 5 years old. I wanted to be married, I wanted a husband, but life has been showing me otherwise.

Can I be straight with you? Marriage can be an idol, a husband can become an idol, and love can become an idol. And this is what it was for me. 

God has been showing me things lately, and I think this is why, at age 44, I haven't even been on a date with a man. I have never even spent more time with a man besides my dad.

I think its because I gave it priority, and put it above God. I see this now, with all the work I do on myself to grow and expand, and peel back layers. 

It's really hard seeing everyone you know finding love, and you can't even get a man. But, as I said, since I was young, I've been looking and looking for love, and giving it priority, and it never flourished in my life.

Honestly, even writing this out is incredibly hard to admit, but I must if I want to heal. 

Church and people don't make it any easier; they add to the pressure of finding someone. Asking questions like Are you married yet, etc. Church influence and societal values prioritize marriage above all. Even car insurance is cheaper if you're married vs single.

Even now, people view single women as less than women. A woman is to get a husband, and then she is worth something. 

I also do not believe in the lie that we need someone to complete us. Even within the Christian faith, I see posts people post about someone being their other half. And that they would be incomplete without them. I truly believe this is a social pressure and feel its also a lie that has been fed to us for far too long.

Do we need to be completed, yes, but by Christ. A man or a woman does not complete us. A partner should enhance our life, not look to make it complete. And it hurts me to hear people say that about their children. Children are a blessing but they don't complete you.

Yes, I do not see the typical faith-based person's perspective. Does God honour marriage? Yes, but it's not like there is a person out there for everyone. This is something Disney and romance movies teach us at a very young age. Some of us never find someone. Plenty of people who are single, especially religious figures.

I got tired of the broken record hearing people say. Oh you'll find someone. Trying to stay optimistic, but 10 years down the road, and have not even had a conversation. 

A husband/wife is a gift some selected people get to have for others this is not part of their experience. It's romantic to think there is someone out there for everyone, but it's not the actual reality. 

Radiant Leadership Academy & Identity 2.0

 

God is so good in the learning and the growing, and it's not all easy work. Some of it can be quite a struggle, but this is how we grow. If everything were easy, we wouldn't ever grow.

So I will back things up. Kingdom Alliance has various signature courses, but the one I will write about, I am on my second pass at it. The thing I love about being able to retake classes is that we get to peel back layers, and we hear and learn new things every time.

RLA stands for Radiant Leadership Academy. It is one of the signature courses that they offer. Many people have jumped in and done RLA alone because that's where so many people were having chains broken and fall to the ground.

Here is a description of the course. 
Radiant Leadership Academy – LEVEL II is a 9-week advanced course designed to elevate your leadership and create a greater Kingdom impact. This next-level program offers high accountability and a deeper dive into leadership development. Whether you've taken RLA multiple times, just once, or not at all this course will strengthen your leadership skills and prepare you for even greater influence. Register now to level up your leadership!

I am behind on posting, but I will make a post for each week and what I got out of it.  To be completely honest, I am not going to be posting all my takeaways here. I will select a few. If I give you everything, then it defeats the purpose of taking the course. I will share 3 or 4 significant takeaways.

This week, our topic was surrender. Yes, we started with a really challenging topic first thing, and why not? Surrender is not an easy topic for most people because we feel like we are giving up. But with God and how he works, everything is his timing. He is not necessarily denying what we want, but there is a time and place, and sometimes we are not ready to receive what it is we are after. But this is another topic for another post. 

The one point in the lesson that stood out to me so much was 

• To fully surrender to God, we must reach a level of acceptance
To truly surrender, we need to reach some level of acceptance.Althought we may not like it or agree with it, that is the situation. It's not easy when we are dealing with something, and so often we want control, but to give it to God, we need to say Hey, I don't like that this person died, or this person is talking bad about me, but God, I give it to you and you handle it. 

Another point that was made that really stood out to me is

• No level of emotion can change a situation
Who else has thought that if I put all my emotion into it, things will change? Does pouring all your emotions bring someone back from the dead? Of course not. We live in a fallen world. This really hit me. It matters not how much emotion you put into it; that does not change the situation.

The final point I will share that really stood out to me is

• Trusting God requires us to praise God in all circumstances.
This one is super tough for me. When you get an illness, or someone dies, or something terrible happens, it's hard to just go into praise mode. But this is what God wants from us. It reminds me of the verse, and it fits perfectly with this thought. 1 Thessalonians 5:18 give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. (NIV)

While all these points stood out (plus I have way more than shared). I think it's the final one that I really feel I hear God speaking to me. Give thanks to learn to give thanks no matter what. Lost a job, give praise, lost a friend, give praise, marriage fails, give praise. I know it sounds so hard to do, but I really feel like God uses everything for his glory, no matter what has happened. But if you're sitting wondering how to do this. You are not alone. I am still learning this, too. 

Identity 2.0 
Unfortunately, for this past week, I didn't have any takeaways, but I will say one of the homework assignments was to take the top three labels you give, such as worthless, turn them into a positive and find the corresponding Bible verse for it.

Here is the description of what the course is about, so you can understand what this course is rooted in.

The Identity 2.0 Program is a 6-week transformative course designed to expose and counteract the subtle tactics used to undermine your identity in Christ. This program dives deep into understanding how doubt, deception, and distraction can distort your view of God, yourself, and your purpose. 

I will hopefully, in the next post, share my top 3 lies and then the corresponding Bible verse that reflects what God says I am. 

Vegan Journey

 

My vegan journey is the subject of a story that can be read in the following post. This is not about my vegan journey itself, but rather a lifelong process.

Those who know me are aware that I was involved in activism from 2014 to 2018, possibly until 2019. I lost track of the exact date I stopped. 

Well, I might not be in the streets bringing awareness to animals bound for slaughter, doing an event where we try to get the public to be aware and engage, but you can't take this out of me. 

Can I say something? The vegan community disappointed me. Unless you are out there doing things all the time, people don't care about you. When I slowly stopped in 2017, no one took the time to ask me if I was okay, what was going on and this slowly dissolved.

It's hard because this is supposed to be a community that claims to speak for all beings. I saw a side I was not expecting. People keep saying ahisma, yet the lack of human caring made me see a different side. I am not naming names, but it was a significant disappointment. 

It felt like a gathering of similarly minded, but a disconnect to humans. I saw people shouting names at people and thought, My goodness, we are here to make people aware, not shout names at people. This was not what I signed up for. How are we to open the eyes when we are shouting insults?

I am not saying all this to also do the same; I am speaking what I saw and my experience to address what is broken in a community. 

You have no idea in May 2014 when I was standing bearing witness to pigs how much empowerment I felt standing up for something I believe in. It meant so much. But there are lots that are broken within a community.

I may not be attending vigils, demonstrations, and events related to animal rights activism, but this does not mean I am no longer an activist. I am just changing how it is done. 

I still feel that the animals are why I am here. I still think it's part of my mission, I feel its the how that is changing. Everything I did in between those years, I think I was meant to. It was part of my mission. Now the how is shifting. 

God is shifting this, and I am now in a different location, for whatever purpose and mission he has for me here. All the activism I did from 2014 till I could no longer do I was meant to do. It fueled me. It gave me purpose but I believe I am on the journey to something deeper that God has for me.

I will always stand for animal rights. I chose to live a vegan lifestyle, but those days of protests for me are done. However, I will find other ways to speak up for animals.

Volunteer Work.

 

So this blog post is not really related to religion, or my faith in a way. It's not growing spiritually focused on a course or a book, but being what God calls us to do.

My dad died in 2022, and since July of that year, I have been doing volunteer work at my local shelter. This has filled me in so many ways.

For the longest time and for the majority of my volunteering, I was there for the feeding shift. So I would let the dogs go out to take care of nature calls; sometimes they would play a bit. I usually leave feeding for the very last thing. I'd wash bowls and also fill up their water, or change their water. There was a lot. I was consistent every week, except for a few times.

It's been an honour and continues to be to serve God's critters. It has brought me so much immense joy to see so many dogs find homes, to see the growth so many dogs have had. Some are incredibly scared to come out of their shell.

These dogs have stamped my heart with their paw print. I started my volunteer work because I feel its my call to help them. At a very young age, I used to see commercials of humane shelters, and it really spoke to me so much. I have had a deep love for dogs, and I must say, too, for cats as well, but having dogs all my life, I have a deep bond with this species. 

When I was young, I did not know what it looked like and had experiences with dogs roaming the streets back in the native country of my parents (Brazil). It spoke to me at such a young age, I said something needs to be done. 

When I was working with someone to help me find work the lady heard a commericial talking with an organization that helps cats and dogs. They are a Canadian organization, and I got connected with them. I took a chance and messaged because I saw on their website that they were looking for a graphic designer, and that was my background, and I also did photography. So the founder invited me to a spay and neuter clinic they were doing in Mexico. From Jan 2012- Nov 2019, I did massive spay and neuter clinics.

However, I felt the urge to stop counting down and instead help local animals in need as well. Love knows no boundaries and animals everywhere need a helping hand. But it's been so good to help local dogs too. This is the highlight of my week. Its so good to spend so much time getting to know so many dogs. The photo in this post is just some of the dogs I got to meet and got to know.

I truly feel that this is a big pull to why I am here. Why I am on earth and God created me to be born and live on earth. Although the animals do not belong to us. None of what we have belongs to us. God just lets us having it for a while.

I would love to have a part time work with animals or doing more for them but right now I am so blessed to get to for the past 3 years see so many dogs. See so many transformations. And most importantly see them find their forever homes after being let down by humans.

New age

 

What I am going to say is not a judgment, but I want to warn others of the dangers that are hidden in the new age way of life.

When I was in New Age I did all the things. I had tarot cards, wore crystals, and had books on New Age topics, such as spirit guides, etc. I attended fairs on New Age. I went and saw an "animal communicator," etc.

I truly wish I had never gotten involved with it, but like God, He can turn the worst thing about it and make it for His glory and His alone.

One of the biggest things I did and spent a lot of time on was sound frequencies. When you even search for these on YouTube, I even remember seeing warnings on them that they are not responsible for what happens. With New Age, each part of the body is labelled with a Chakra. Your feet, for example, are the root chakra. Just Google chakras, and you will get a diagram, but I advise you to stay away from it.

I would listen to these for hours at a time, and it plays a big part today in why I have the pain that I do in my body. So what exactly do you need to look out for if it says 555Hz, stay away from it. Stay away from anything that has Hz in the title. They are not healing. They actually hurt you. The one "chakra" I focused on is the part of my body that I am having deep pain and troubles with. Please be careful what you listen to. 555 Hz is just an example; many other frequencies are supposed to fit a chakra. 

Another thing I am so over and falls with New Age is manifestation. This is dangerous because the universe is space, planets, stars, galaxies, etc. The universe does not have you back, and you don't say I want a car, and you get a car back. We have a sovereign Lord. Those who are parents will understand. If your kid wants to put his hand on the stove that is on. Do you let him? No you warn him not to touch.

This thing of manifesting really bothers me. People say I am manifesting my home, etc. Having pictures of it does not make it any more yours or a part of your life. I am really bothered by this, and hearing people say Oh, I manifested it. Why, because it takes all the power from God. Every good and perfect gift comes from above James 1:17.

The problem is that sometimes we get things we think we want, and then they turn out to be disastrous. With manifestation, it takes the power out of God and places it all on ourselves, but really, we can't manifest these things, and it's displeasing to God because it puts ourselves higher than Him.

I don't say these things ot judge. I was once caught in the rabbit hole of New Age way of life but it can really take you dark places if you start digging more. New Age is dangerous and I warn people to stay clear of it.

God can use my time there for his glory. His love for me called me out of the way of life I was living. He can do the same for you. Let us remember the Bible clearly tells us that Satan disguises himself as an angel of light ( 2 Corinthians 11:14). It's very deceiving because in part New Age takes some truths and then twists it to fit the narrative people want.

But in John 14:6, Jesus tells us he is the truth. I am not looking here to convert people; I have no agenda. I just want to warn others about the dangers of New Age, and not everything on YouTube is good. Some things sound good, but they can really do more harm than good.

What I truly invite you to do is to start talking with God. Start small. Maybe start with God, please guide me today, and work your way up.  God wants a relationship with us, and no matter what we have done, he can redeem and use it for His glory! 

The rapture

So this is going to be a faith-based post, and the topic is the rapture.

I grew up in a denomination that does not believe in the rapture. We believe in Jesus, the holy spirit and God. The trinity but no rapture.

The first time I heard about the rapture was on an episode of The Simpsons. I had no idea other Christians believed in that.

Reading the Bible in 2018, I did not get any hints of a rapture. In my denomination, we primarily discussed the second coming of Christ, and that was the bulk of the teachings. Nothing about some secret rapture and people being taken off the earth.

I don't believe in it. This is something you either do or don't. It's not because some Christian says it's going to happen that makes it true. Jesus said he is the truth. Jesus never spoke of some taking and leaving of believers or people.

Also, with God living in us, we need to test the spirits to make sure it's true. Every human, including those in the Bible, was flawed. They have a limited understanding, and I have a limited understanding. I could come up with an idea and start sharing about it, and there would be people who believe it to be the truth. It's human nature.

I am not saying you are wrong; you could be right if you believe in the rapture. I am just stating my belief and my viewpoint. Some see it as a good thing, but I see it as quite scary. Imagine being at home and suddenly, people in your family disappear. It sounds terrifying.

Yet for some, this might be comforting. While I don't believe in it. If God would remove people on earth because what would happen would be too much for them to handle, I would hope that he would do that for me.  As it is, it's hard to handle the state of the world. The fires, the extreme heat, the really bad storms, the lack of precipitation, etc. That any evil force that would be unleashed on this world probably would be too much for me to handle.

The denomination I was raised in and currently attend, I fear something bad happening to us, as there are rumours by other people that something horrible is going to happen to those in the denomination.

Well, being a believer in so many places in the world can get you killed. And it's been like this since Jesus' time.

I am not saying that if you believe in a rapture, you are wrong and I am right. I don't know. I just don't have the belief that it's going to happen, and personally, I find it all terrifying. Imagine being in a plane and suddenly the pilot is taken away. It just doesn't sound like something God would do. Especially since God is love.

At the end of the day, I am open to the possibility that I might be wrong. However, as I am on my journey and have had time to reflect, I don't believe in it. That's just me! 

Friendships and Community.

I have struggled with relationships my whole life. I am an introvert, highly sensitive person (HSP), I also battle with anxiety and depression, and it's all a worldwind of emotions that I have to deal with. 

I love being with my company, and it has helped me grow more than anything else out there. Even worked as a cashier for a brief time in 2020. But this relationship matter has been a struggle for me.

It's hard when you pour yourself and it runs empty. Perhaps I have not been the best friend, and this is why I have no relationships, even though I try. But I get discouraged when I try to build relationships and they turn up void.

Doing the anthology with my company helped me to be part of something. It was a project that I am so grateful I got the chance to be part of. However, I still struggle to have that sense of community and group of people who have my back.

I have put myself out there, but that doesn't mean it's going to turn out well. I know from my business that many results are because of consistency. There is no fast track to the desired outcomes.  We don't live in a world where you snap your fingers and you are there. Most of the results come from hard work and putting in the effort. I know this, but I wish friendship and community were a little easier.

You would think that, being an adult, things would be easier. Kids hurt other kids; they are still developing and learning what's right. Yet at 44, I struggle to connect with others and make meaningful relationships. I may have too high expectations, or this is a struggle that I was given. I really do not have the answers for this. All I know is that connecting with others has been my greatest life challenge.

You will often find me alone, or if I'm with someone, it's usually a dog or my sweet pup. I don't get into a whole lot of conversations even when I attempt and put myself out there. It has all been a challenge for me.

How to connect with others? This is something I don't know how to do. It's my greatest learning curve.

I am not sure people can understand how difficult it is for me. People take things for granted because socializing is so easy for them. But for me, it has always been a struggle.

Can I be honest? My whole life, I have never had a real human friend. Most of my friendships ended. I am learning to be social, and I can be social, interact with people, but that friendship where we have each other's backs, that has never been my experience. I have had a lot of non-human relationships, but human relationships, I haven't had many at all.


I wish this world were kinder to people, more understanding and more empathetic. For some of us, it is so tough. I hear of all these people that have had friends since a young age, and I am like most of the people I have or were friends with have evaporated and gone. Except for my cousins, everyone I once knew is a stranger now.

I have begun to believe I will be one of those people who will never experience friendship. I am starting to make peace with it., Count your blessings if you have real friendship, because that is something I can only dream of.

Kingdom Alliance

 

So I thought I would post even though in my previous post, I posted a bit about Kingdom Alliance.

In February 2020, I joined my first networking company. No hate at all, just it didn't feel completely aligned. I loved the products and the people. But something was missing.

In 2023, I started to look into the opportunity and the company Girl Power Alliance( which was their name before Kingdom Alliance). I immediately investigated and saw this was something I had been praying for.

With my other company, there was a lot of new age sown into it, and I felt uncomfortable. I have always been one who loves personal development. I did a lot of reading of books, but I wanted something that was Christ-centred, and when I heard about Girl Power Alliance, I said Wow, this is something I have been wanting.

I was not sure, even though I had the inclination, I would join after meeting with one of the co-founders and attending several of their opportunity calls. I jumped in, did their sneak peek, loved what I saw, and joined.

So what exactly is Kingdom Alliance? KA is a personal, professional and leadership membership with an income opportunity. How that works is that you get people to sign up under you, then earn some. And then, as those people get people, you get money from them too. 

The thing I love about this is that you can work from anywhere; you just need a device. 

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If you have any questions, feel free to drop them below and I will get back to you.

Returning to blogging

 It's been a minute since I posted anything. I've decided to pick things up, and while a lot has happened since I created this blog, I originally started it as a space to share my ideas and thoughts on spiritual matters. Now, I plan to weave more into it.

When I first created this blog, I had just joined my first network marketing company. I needed a space to connect with spiritual matters, and that's where this site was born.

However, in May 2023, I joined another company that aligns more with me. It's also a network marketing company, but it's a place where I can plug in and grow. And boy, did I do quite a bit of growing in 2 years. Even though I still have a long way to go, I am much further than I thought I would be without it.

I am an ambassador with Kingdom Alliance, which is a personal, professional, and leadership membership with the opportunity for income. I have seen so many people come and go, but I just can't imagine not having the resources that I so desperately need.

Since I began growing and developing with this wonderful company, I have also, in October 2024, launched a book, an anthology to be exact, where I wrote my story. I wrote the chapter from breakdown to breakthrough, talking about overcoming a major mental health crisis and also my call out of new age that happened around the same time. This book is a collection of 14 stories of how God helped these women through a significant moment in their lives.

Writing this ignited my writing journey, and I am eager to do more. I believe this blog will be a great way to get me writing again, and I have some future written projects in mind that I would like to pursue.

If you are reading this and it's not up yet, check back. I will be working on putting this book link on my blog, where you can buy and purchase it. Don't fret, I got you!

Christmas, holidays.

 Christmas is fast approaching and I felt like exploring holidays as a topic....

For the longest time we have not participated in the holiday. The years my aunt was living in Canada we would get gifts for my cousins but that's because their birthday fall in the month. I mean in a way we still celebrate it, we do make a different meal or order and pre covid we would take the food to have with my dad at his nursing home but that is the extent of it.

Especially since my health crises in 2017 I have been less wanting to celebrate. After reading the Bible in 2018 I came to the conclusion its not Biblical so it makes no sense to celebrate. Its something of this world. I know even birthdays are of this world but I guess for me I just want to feel for one day I matter. I know that things in the end are about God. Its so hard not to get into things because even fellow Christians are going to celebrate. However, I don't need one day to celebrate Jesus  birth, or his death. Every time I think of Jesus I instantly think of his Birth and his sacrifice. So for me I don’t need those days to be reminded. Jesus was not born Dec 25. We moved it to be a day to celebrate this and make the holiday more christian friendly but he was not born that day...Its hard because even in the christian community people celebrate it heavily. I think one message I saw and am agreement with, FOLLOW CHRIST and not CHRISTIANS. Follow in Christ's footsteps and not fellow Christians as they are flawed, they sin, etc.

I admit though its hard, I do miss sending out cards to people thats something I used to do this time of year but I suppose I should let God lead and maybe start sending cards during other times of the year just because. The giving cards is not the problem its what we are celebrating that is. 

I am also  been having a hard time with this false prophets issue. I know there are so many and they are out there but at the same time I think the enemy works hard and convincing that people are false. Because what he wants most is for us not to have a relationship with our heavenly father. I just need to take step and cultivate. Not be so scared because God is with me and if he reveals to me that someone is false then I can move forward and then perhaps stop listening to those people. But I feel like I need people, I need different perspective. We weren't meant to be alone. We are not meant to have only our thoughts. Thats the whole reason God created man and woman. I truly believe that God can use even false prophets for things. Like I mean there are parts that are true which is why its so hard to distinguish whats false and whats true because they say things that sounds like the truth. I guess I just need to continue to dive deep and read my Bible more and not just my regular routine. 

I right now am doing two things in my God Journal, I am writing out a Bible verse from a made up list and also writing something I am thankful for also from a list that was made up. I am hoping though when the new year starts to do similar stuff. I hope to find more of these challenges and more things that I can write about. Also looking more for Bible study guides to bring thoughts and dig deeper in his word. I am hoping in 2021 to have a new routine and spend more time in prayer, I want also to spend time cultivating a better relationship with him. I don't want to go to God only when I need something but I truly want him to be my BEST FRIEND.

My Vegan Story

 

 

 

So I thought I would share my vegan story as well. Why I am sharing this because it all ties in with things. 

So like I have said in my about story I grew up in the Seventh Day Adventist Church and this all ties in with how I went vegan. 

Okay so lets start from the beginning. Growing up in the SDA denomination they have advocated for plant based eating. Growing up I remember going to potlucks and there was no ounce of meet, dairy or eggs in the food. It was all plant based.  Now this is not say all members are vegan but the faith in general  advocate for vegetarianism/veganism.  All because of Ellen G White (although many people speculate that she was a false profit even though she helped found the church). Ellen was vegetarian I don't think the term vegan was for back then, she was just an full blown vegetarian. 

Because of this I grew up dominantly eating vegetarian food. I did however eat eggs and dairy products. I did eat animals too but my dad new about the issues with animals. Like how they are raised, hormones, treatment etc. Also my grandfather (his dad) himself was a vegetarian. So it was just how I grew up. The only animal products I remember us bringing in the house was occasionally we had chicken and fish. We did used to eat at taco bell and would have cow flesh then and remember once also having a pizza with ground cow on  it. Pizza was horrible by the way, never went back to that pizza place.

I also got sick several times that I ate at Mc Donalds. I got food poising from have cow flesh and also got sick once from having chicken. It was so much that my mom would remind me not to get the chicken from McDonalds because it did not sit well in my stomach. For the most part growing up when would eat there till a certain age I would just eat their fish fillet sandwich. I did start eating cow flesh in a little later in my life. For the most part when was with my dad we would eat vegetarian. With my mom I would eat (I grew up with my parents being separated so would alternate weekend with my mom, weekend with my dad) more animal based proteins.  I really think the second time I got sick from eating a quarter pounder from McDonald's was a wake up call. However, ever since I was a little girl I feel like I was getting the call to be vegan.

On my way to spend time with my mom we would pass slaughterhouse trucks on the hi way. I was naive and thought that they were just moving the animals to a different farm. I remember a while later talking to my dad and he said they were going to the slaughterhouse.  On the highway part from where we would meet my mom and transfer into her car to go to my moms place there was a Schneider billboard and I always used to then start dreaming about then the animals and what they go through at the slaughter house. While Schneider is not a slaughterhouse for some reason it made me think of a slaughterhouse.

 

I am not going to lie, I used to like how animal proteins tasted. My mom used to make a really good roast. But I always felt guilty any time I would eat them. I felt like something greater then me was telling me not to eat animal flesh. Well in 2007 I had my first mental health crises and I just got the link then that I needed to go vegan. I did not go till much later but again the thought I should go vegan was there. Honestly if God really was calling me to Go Vegan all these years I was really bad at obeying him.

 

I remember though touching and handling animal flesh always made me feel grossed out. I remember one time lets say around 2009-2010 I got some chicken breast and was making a soup. I was so disgusted that I did not have one bit of the soup my mom had it all. Finally in 2011 I was working with an organization that helps people with mental health issues, we were working on my resume,  and looking for jobs. She heard on the radio of this organizations that helps dogs and cats over seas by doing massive spay and neuter clinics. I contact them and got involved with volunteer work. After my first clinic in 2012 I started seeking on facebook pages against animal cruelty all because one of the dogs that came to the clinic was attacked by a human with a machete  so it just got me to search for a page against  animal cruelty. In it I found a page (no longer exists) called Animal Cruelty Exposed.  In it I started learning about the cruelty that goes on to animals. In that year of October I decided I was no longer going to eat animals. I still had some fish in between then and when I went vegan. As I continued to learn about what goes on I also got information from a page called the Bloody dairy industry and started learning how cruel and horrible dairy is and in July of 2013 I finally went vegan. 

With all this said the thing I regret the most is not doing it sooner. After I went vegan and shortly after getting involved with activism I created my own page and blog called The Gentle Vegan. You can access that blog by clicking here

So that in a nutshell is my story to going vegan. I may look into putting it in a video one day soon too.

Jobs and Life

 So I just got this topic in my mind and decided to write about it. I really think the life we live is not at all how God intended for us. I understand we need to make money, to pay our bills, food, clothing, etc but I truly don't believe one bit this is what God envisioned for us.

This makes it tough and partially shortly after I went vegan I got impressed that this everyday living is not for me. I am the most happiest when I am volunteering. I kinda in a way feel bad to make money when there are countless others who are suffering or going without basic needs.. Now I do have a job and It is nice to have some money in my pocket to do things but I think of all those that aren't as fortunate.

I am just really drawn to act of service and helping out our fellow man and or other critters.  I feel so many people do not have the same luxuries that I do and its our duty to help them. Our job is not to judge who is fitting, our job is to obey and to help them out. If there is any sorting to do God's got that. 

 

There are many things I would love to help out with I'd love to help others who also suffer from anxiety, depression. I have both and know all too well the demons that need to be slayed. Whether in Christian setting or not so many people need help and feel like its okay to bare their soul. I also would love to help others connect and their journey towards veganism. I don't have all the answers, but would love to help someone out. Then there is too helping animals in need. This is my biggest want to help out with. I don't know what God has in store for me and really I should of been going to God with all this first.

 

If any of that would lead to a paid position would be bonus but money is not the main motivator for me. I mean in my job I have now it kinda is. But generally speaking I want to help. I am not the best at small chat. I hate repeating myself also and with the job I have now you say the exact same thing to everyone you talk too. I dunno where God will lead. Sometimes I even wonder if I will get to those things because it just shows that Jesus is coming back real soon. When you think of this though how many people thought the same when world war broke out. People thought this is it the world is coming to an end but I just feel  like even more so now that this is so very true. I guess this is why I have troubles too doing stuff.  I know God does not want that either. He wants me to enjoy this life that he has given me. But so many scenarios pop in my head and am left wondering {also not knowing what to do}.

 

No one knows the hour, or the day, its not anything one person can predict. Only God knows when that will be. Our job is to always be prepared because that day could come at any moment. Or we could find ourselves face to face with him. I dunno I think this is just me and how I see things but I think we were meant for more than just the life we live now. There is so much I think we miss with our current life.

 

Well just some thoughts, thank you if you read it till the end. I appreciate it!