This year we had an unexpected move. It was kinda a whim, but thinking about our prayer call this morning (oct 13), we were reminded that we don't get what we want, we get what we need.
This year, the move was super hard. I liked my surroundings, so many birds, squirrels, rabbits, raccoons, coyotes, possums, etc. I had an abundance of wildlife. Since moving, I have not felt as good. I don't see as much wildlife here, and it makes me sad.
I do feel, though, that the move was necessary, but it has still been a bit hard to pull myself out of the hole. But what I am getting at with all this is we don't get what we want, we get what we need. With the move we were able to pay off debts, buy our current house, plus buy a new car. Its not brand spanking new but pretty close. I see this as a need, not a want.
With God, he doesn't always give us what we want, but what we need. And right now in this part of life this is what we need. I don't know what will happen in this chapter. I don't know what God has in store for us but this is where we are in life. Looking back, I reflect on the move a lot because it's what made up 2025 the most.
I was also diagnosed with PCOS at the end of 2024, and for those that don't know, it's very common in women, and I am seeing more and more women who have it. So what is it? It is Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS) and there is different kinds. I have insulin resistance, which makes it hard to lose weight, and I have gained so much weight. I am trying to be mindful of what I eat and how much, but still I struggle to lose even a pound. I have faith God knows what's going on, and he will help me treat it. I need to listen to him and use him as my compass.
I feel natural would work better for me as I feel the difference with the supplements I take, but I've been on medication, and it's doing nothing for me. I still have so many symptoms and am trying natural options to help it. Will see how that will go. I have this for life now. But if I could manage it and get to a better or functional method, that's my goal.
This year has thrown me so many curveballs. I am really hoping this coming year will be a better year for me. Even years tend to be better than odd years. So here is hoping.
This past year of 43 I did have growth but not as much as I had in the previous year. Still, I have my eyes on growing and deepening my understanding of who God is. In my heart and soul, I want to experience him. It's not just about knowing a bunch of facts. I want to have experiences with him that shift and propel my life.
What I want most is to hear from him and to begin experiencing with my creator. This is what I am hoping 44 will give me.
But mostly I'm thinking through the good, the bad, the highs, the lows. God gave me experiences, no matter how I have labelled them. This is a new experience. I know there will be blessings on the other side. This is a new chapter in my life and I don't know what will happen. But like in Oct 2012 when I moved to my former city, I also did not know what would unfold. I know this, too, will have its treasures. Even if right now its kinda hard.
I am ready for a new year, I am ready to see what blessings God has in store and for me at this point of my life. I do look at what matters and that is another year of life. I have the ability to drive, have roof over my head, food at my table, and those that I love. Everything else and additional blessings is just the icing on the cake. All in all I am grateful even if this past year did not go as planned.
I do also look forward to a belated birthday celebration in November as I will be going to see Kim Walker Smith. I am looking forward to that!!
So cheers to 44, I am ready for all the blessings God has for me. Grateful for another year!!
Last selfie at 43
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