Christmas, holidays.

 Christmas is fast approaching and I felt like exploring holidays as a topic....

For the longest time we have not participated in the holiday. The years my aunt was living in Canada we would get gifts for my cousins but that's because their birthday fall in the month. I mean in a way we still celebrate it, we do make a different meal or order and pre covid we would take the food to have with my dad at his nursing home but that is the extent of it.

Especially since my health crises in 2017 I have been less wanting to celebrate. After reading the Bible in 2018 I came to the conclusion its not Biblical so it makes no sense to celebrate. Its something of this world. I know even birthdays are of this world but I guess for me I just want to feel for one day I matter. I know that things in the end are about God. Its so hard not to get into things because even fellow Christians are going to celebrate. However, I don't need one day to celebrate Jesus  birth, or his death. Every time I think of Jesus I instantly think of his Birth and his sacrifice. So for me I don’t need those days to be reminded. Jesus was not born Dec 25. We moved it to be a day to celebrate this and make the holiday more christian friendly but he was not born that day...Its hard because even in the christian community people celebrate it heavily. I think one message I saw and am agreement with, FOLLOW CHRIST and not CHRISTIANS. Follow in Christ's footsteps and not fellow Christians as they are flawed, they sin, etc.

I admit though its hard, I do miss sending out cards to people thats something I used to do this time of year but I suppose I should let God lead and maybe start sending cards during other times of the year just because. The giving cards is not the problem its what we are celebrating that is. 

I am also  been having a hard time with this false prophets issue. I know there are so many and they are out there but at the same time I think the enemy works hard and convincing that people are false. Because what he wants most is for us not to have a relationship with our heavenly father. I just need to take step and cultivate. Not be so scared because God is with me and if he reveals to me that someone is false then I can move forward and then perhaps stop listening to those people. But I feel like I need people, I need different perspective. We weren't meant to be alone. We are not meant to have only our thoughts. Thats the whole reason God created man and woman. I truly believe that God can use even false prophets for things. Like I mean there are parts that are true which is why its so hard to distinguish whats false and whats true because they say things that sounds like the truth. I guess I just need to continue to dive deep and read my Bible more and not just my regular routine. 

I right now am doing two things in my God Journal, I am writing out a Bible verse from a made up list and also writing something I am thankful for also from a list that was made up. I am hoping though when the new year starts to do similar stuff. I hope to find more of these challenges and more things that I can write about. Also looking more for Bible study guides to bring thoughts and dig deeper in his word. I am hoping in 2021 to have a new routine and spend more time in prayer, I want also to spend time cultivating a better relationship with him. I don't want to go to God only when I need something but I truly want him to be my BEST FRIEND.