I usually like to post on a topic-specific post, but this is going to be a post on random things.
At the end of 2024, I was diagnosed with PCOS/ Insulin resistance. I need to make so many modifications to my diet. It's hard, but I'm doing the best I can. So much I should avoid because it does not help my condition. I started drinking Matcha tea with Green tea in it, and it's helping me stay more alert, but the thing that's helping the most is Inositol. Since taking it, I feel I have more energy and am less sleepy.
However, lately I have been feeling discouraged. I feel like the week is going so slowly and am longing for things I do not even know if will ever bring forth fruit. It's hard when you long for things and see no signs of fruit. I know God has his own timing, and like we are told, it's always perfect, but it's hard to wait. I know I think of 1 Thessalonians 5:1, that we are to give thanks in all circumstances because this is God's will for you. But it is challenging.
I have been trying to rely on God, go to him with my longings, with what's on my mind and heart, but it's not easy. My struggle in life is that I find it hard to have relationships in my life. And if I can't have a relationship with people, I can see how I can with God; I can't see. I do try to have a relationship with those I know, but sometimes I wonder if that's even a relationship? I often hear that if you get your relationship with God right, the rest will fall into place. So I go back and forth with which I should focus on. Yes, as a believer, God should be the choice, but it's hard.
